Thursday, 17 January 2013

Emotions Are Part Of Life

34th BLOG POST -->>


People say that what we are all seeking is meaning for life. I think that what we're really seeking is an experience of being alive, so that our life experiences on the purely physical plane will have resonance within our innnermost being and reality, so that we can actually feel the rapture of being alive.
You are not your “Emotions.” You have emotions – the ability to feel within yourself as a reaction to what you hear, see, taste, smell, and feel means your senses. Now, this may surprise you, but you have the ability to choose the way you feel /your emotional state.
                First, it is absolutely vital that you understand that you are a three-part being: spirit, soul and body. Everyone who has ever been born into this world has these same three parts.
                The spirit is the part of a person that makes him alive. When the physical body dies, the spirit leaves the body. That spirit does not cease to exist; it leaves this physical world and goes to the spiritual world – what the Bible calls “heaven” or “hell.”
The soul is the part of a person which is his mind, his will, and his emotions.The brain is physical – a part of the body – it processes the information received from the physical senses. It is not the mind. The mind has taken in information from the brain.
The body is your earth suit. Your spirit and soul live in your body. One must have a body to be alive in this world. Without a body, your spirit and soul must go to one of the other two places. We need little explanation about our bodies because most people are more aware of their bodies than they are of the spirits and souls. However, we must realize that the body is simply the physical “thing” that you move around in on this earth. It is highly complex and most of our time in our lives is spent on taking care of, feeding, pampering, medicating, resting, and protecting our bodies. I am not saying that is wrong. But we have certainly given our attention to our bodies and neglected our spirits and souls. Your spirit and soul are the real you. The body is what the real you lives in.
Every day, passion speaks to us through our feelings. That’s why when you allow yourself to become anesthetized by what others think, you literally block yourself from living the life you were called to live. I promise you that if you make a choice that doesn’t please your mate, your friends, your mother, or whoever, the world will not fall apart. The people who truly love you want you to love yourself.    
I have come to realize that the heart is that place in you where your spirit and soul come together. You can choose to feel the emotions from the wonderful things which are in us as a result of the new birth.
Life is like an unsolved puzzle. No one can define what life is because it is a very complex thing. Life is something that makes you happy and proud at times and makes you feel so low at times that you say to yourself, "Why was I born?" But whatever it is, it is real fun. In Life, in every moment, something new happens; something that you never expected, something that you were waiting from a long while to happen and something you were expecting to happen. It is a combination of happiness, sorrow, joy, love, anger, enjoyment, loneliness, fear, excitement and many other emotions.


“Dil pe jo tere ghum ki inayat nahi hoti, aankhon se aansuon ki rafaakat nahi hoti
hum rehnuma se iltizaa kare to kyun kare, dariya ko raaston ki zaroorat nahi hoti
bujhta hai ai chiraag-e-zindagi tou bujh jaye, ab humse teri aur hifaazat nahi hoti
jane yeh log kaise nibhate hai jafaaein, humse tou iss gunaah ki himmat nahi hoti
patthar kahon use tou kis zuban se kahon, pattharon mein itni nazakat nahi hoti
tujhko gaye hue tou zamane guzar gaye, yaad teri iss dil se kyun rukhsat nahi hoti
jo bhul jaye tumko tum bhi usko bhula do, woh mohabbat tou mohabbat nahi hoti”

The definition of the word life can't be completed without using the word emotions. Some people work in emotions whereas others work with emotions. So it's very important to understand how people are using their emotions. If they are letting emotions get control over them, then they'll be dragged by others and situations all the time. But, if he is controlling his emotions in a proper way, then no one will ever have control over him.
The way a person uses his emotions is what we call attitude. Someone has correctly said, "Your attitude determines your altitude in life"attitude, as I already defined, is the way an individual uses his emotions and directly related to the psyche of a person.
Some people use their emotions in a positive way and some people do it in a negative sense. When people use emotions in a positive way we call it positive attitude and when they use it in a negative way we call it negative attitude. It's up to an individual to decide how he uses his emotions. Which way will you decide? 
 You are innately designed to use your personal power. When you don't, you experience a sense of helplessness, paralysis, and depression-which is your clue that something is not working as it could. You, like all of us, deserve everything that is wonderful and exciting in life. And those feelings emerge only when you get in touch with your powerful self.   
Remember, in our inmost being, we are all completely lovable because spirit is love. Beyond what anyone can make you think or feel about yourself, your unconditioned spirit stands, shining with a love nothing can tarnish.

Monday, 14 January 2013

To Love And Be Loved Is To Feel From Both Sides

33rd BLOG POST -->>



Yesterday when I was in Mansa Ram Park,Delhi then something comes in mind. Life is like an unsolved puzzle. No one can define what life is because it is a very complex thing. Life is something that makes you happy and proud at times and makes you feel so low at times that you say to yourself, "Why was I born?" But whatever it is, it is real fun.
Love is a gift from the god .This gift can’t get everybody. The love is not a crime…In starting you forget everything in love but at last love forget you. :(... that’s a fact of life …
When a girl dumps a guy…she dumps him for a reason…!! And the reason is it wasn’t meant to be. If someone dumps you..they don’t want to be with you..and I don’t think any reasonable person want to spend their life with a person that never genuinely wanted him or her. so guys get it right in your head.. if it didn’t work..it was for a reason..and the day you meet your beastie u will know the reason why it didn’t work with others! LOL..!  
It’s strange!! When there were prohibitions, love was so pure and true and now, when society is flexible, love has just become ..X., only a license it have ..X.. Most of the cases now, I mean!! Love has become a joke now when society has become more open minded!!!
You are the love of someone else but you are loved by someone else. You are liked by someone else but your likes are taken care of by someone else. Who is my own and who is a stranger? What is true what a lie is? in this world who knows. You are in the gaze of someone else but you are looked at by someone else.
Normally I see there are some of my friends who love a girl but not telling them. When I say you must tell her then they repeat only one line”Yaar himmat nhi hoti or kaise bolu.” Then I think that these guys are the best idiots of world that can’t tell the truth to someone. Tell him/her the truth before you lose him/her. It’s hard to speak the truth for the first time and trust me and rest of your life be in peace….
It’s true that I’m something more romantic guy. I never run from the truth of life…I’m not afraid when telling truth about someone. I speak that comes in my heart. Sometimes my friends message me that “yaar ladki kaise ptate hai jaldi bta…” etc …..!! Here I'll not say that what I'm feeling.....
I am sorry for her lost. Do what makes you happy, sometimes it is better to live with pain than try to forget the one you love. I don't think you can ever forget the one you love. All I can tell you will get used to of the pain, it will never go away. You will learn to live and laugh with it. The people that have never loved or lost in love don't know that it is not in your hand to forget the one you loved and will always love.
Khwaab tutee hue, dil dukhaate rahe, Der tak woh hume yaad aate rahe, Kaat lee aansuon mein judaai ki raat, Sher kehte rahe, gane gungunaate rahe Tere jalwe paraaye hue magar gum nahi, Ye tassalli bhi apne liye kam nahi, Humne tumse kiya tha jo wafa ka vaada, Saans jab taq chali, hum nibhaate rahe Kisko mujrim kahein ab karein kya gilaa, Rishta tuta, na unki na meri thi razaa, Apni kismat mein kabhi woh thi hi nahi, Khwaab palkon pe jiske sajaate rahe...”
True Love is hard to get. Love is all about giving to other person without greed of gaining anything in return, if other person rejects it, it’s him/her who will be losing the most important thing in life. So never feel dejected.
And I love relationship there is another question that “ladko or ladkio mai kon zyada loyal (wafadar) hota hai.” For this question most people will say that “ladko me zyada loyalty hoti hai ladkiyoi se”. Sometimes I’m not satisfied from this answer. I see many couples where guys are not loyal in their relationship. Sometimes girls are more loyal than boys for this reason there is also a example from my college life. I remember that day 24th April,2011 when I see this fact. Here one problem is that I can’t share it. After that day I changed so much. If possible I’ll tell about that day …!!
If you lost his/her then don’t feel you are punishing yourself by thinking about her...just forget her....get married to someone else. and see, the new girl will fill so much of love in your life that you'll forget your ex-lover in no time....love life is just like professional life...if u lose a job, u don't sit and cry, u stand up and search for another job....life's like that man...so cheer up and start searching for a new girl (or better ask your parents to do so)...all the best
Love hurts. I hope if it’s for the better and keep hope always up. It’s wrong to be between two people to choose, to want. If they're for the better than that shall be. Nobody is good or bad it just Circumstances which made a person good or bad, and they will react accordingly. We need to understand it and should realize out mistakes and move on.
That's life. Parents can be convinced but couple-boy or girl should ask their self, do they really want to get married ,if answer is yes , than you should take stand no matter whatever happen. Don’t run or die because that won’t do anything. If anyone steps back the other person can't do anything.
But what about if everything goes fine until one day knows that everything is over, especially in our continent (Asian) most of our parents don’t agree... And when they do then it hurts allot...
To my knowledge I have never used someone. But I always help everybody from the whole of my heart. I am not bad you know. but when you have loved someone truly and she was unfaithful, and hold someone hand in front of you then you realize how love can change someone to a beast I suppose. It’s not me but it was my best friend me don’t have any girlfriend its good, I live more happily than those lovers. But most of the time girls are the worst because they have plenty of guys that run after them. Good I’m not like those guys and girls…!!!
Very true :) loved him with heart but it doesn't even matter but sometimes I wonder when we love someone we just love them without any reason and it goes on and on…!!

Friday, 11 January 2013

Enjoy The Jokes....!!!!



32th BLOG POST -->>



 1.) A small boy opens the door and looks at his sister's boy friend and asks innocently "Every day you come to meet my sister, don't you have your
Own sister."
2.) Santa went for an interview Bank manager: what is cyclone? Santa: It is a smallest loan given by bank to buy a cycle :):):)
3.) Chintu was having habit of eating nails of his hand, His parents sent him to Ramdev Baba for treatment….. . . . Now Chintu can also eat nails of his legs..
4.) Teeth said to Tongue " If I just press you little hard, you will get cut. Tongue replied: "If I misuse one word against someone, then all the 32 of you will come out at once.”
5.) What is the height of flirting? When your love letter starts with . . . . " TO WHOMSOEVER IT MAY CONCERN"
6.) Ek aadmi ka ye sun kar heart fail ho gaya jab uski kaam waali bai ne kaha Saahab "Facebook pe muje bhi add kar lo."
7.) Dada(Grand Father): Beta ja paani le aa.
Pota(Grand Son): Mai nai laa sakta, mai game khel raha hun…..
2nd Pota (Second grandson): Rahne do dada ji, ye to hai he BADATMEEZ.....Aap khud he ja k le aao.
8.) World's shortest poem.. Baba black sheep have you any wool?..............
sheep: NO, get lost.
9.) Police: Oye, carparking ki jagah bike kyu park ki hai ?
Santa: just smiled and said "sirf do pahiyon ka farak hai UNCLE, aa jayenge
10.) Santa London k ek hotel me murgi khaane gaya lekin murgi ka english word bhool gaya..
Waiter: What would you like to have sir?
Santa: 1 plate Egg's mother.


Saturday, 5 January 2013

Missing Like Hell......!!!!


31th BLOG POST -->>



So, we meet for the first time in the New Year- 2013. Leaving all that we had in 2012 behind. The relationship that bloomed in the last year is finally at its height now. No need to remain in the past. The one who remains in the past is a stale body and soul. The one who is in present is the one with whom the life is to be celebrated with. Hence, I want all of you to finally leave last year and step up into this new one in the same way as you change the calendar of your house with the provenance of a year. And with it, change your habits. Even if now you will keep on giving excuses, it's better to leave your life and transfer your soul into a new body which shall respect it more than you do. So better change yourself now.
            Life is changed a lot in just one year and not just life I feel am also changed.. or maybe I can sense it this time because its recent.. When I decided to do B.Tech I never thought it will be like this. Our dreams are always different from real thing.
            Life is being different and not so brilliant lately. I thought I’ll give myself some more time to realize what’s going missing and why I am lacking that spark inside. Everyday end up with a feeling of restlessness and dissatisfaction. Leaving behind regret that one more day is wasted in running in a “rat race”…..
People might be happy living such life. But I am not nor do I want to get used to it. I can’t even abuse here huh. I have not seen such people in my life. Hell man! So mean…. Forget about friendship they don’t even know the meaning of being human. Their every act and every step is selfish. This is not my world and I am dead sure! I know myself I can do much better things in life. I gave myself time and now I have realized….
I was so much happy being a student. Don't know why I am here. This is not something I wanted….. I can feel the suffocation inside. From last 1 week when I leave my room for college, canteen I feel like crying… I carry so much of hurt inside. Something badly wounded as if my soul is tapped in a prison crying and craving for freedom. I feel like am in a world of machines where everybody is just doing programmed things without any sense of emotion. May be I am not liking anything nor I can cope up with it that’s why its making me so negative. I am workable and I can do well in life but so sad ..don't know why I am wasting myself .... the worst part is…. Hell yaar! I don’t wanna mention here…. Huh…. It seems now I'm more towards negativity.
            I am angry with you God! Believe me I never expected this from you. If you are punishing me for my sins then I guess you should stop now its already too much! And how I cant stop loving you. And I am thankful for good things you gave me.... My people.... My family and friends..... And of course many other things too but please help me out. You know I am in trouble and I am waiting for your reply God..... Love ya...

Monday, 31 December 2012

WELCOME 2013 !!!!



30th BLOG POST -->>



One more year comes to an end. The clock has ticked 12 AM and its 31st December, 2012. The last day to fulfill all our commitments we made to complete in 2012.  2012 is gone. The best year of my life has gone. It has left me. It has left me but it has given me an another year- 2013 to live, enjoy, celebrate, rule, develop, improve and rejoice in every moment of it. I almost fell in love with 2010. But, when 2011 started, I had a faith in me that I will give my 100% to this year but I was unsure of what the year will give me back in return of all the efforts I'll apply to it. But, now I got to learn a lesson that- God helps Those Who Helps Themselves !!!
Today we leave behind another year. Another year full of emotions, happiness, sadness, anger, resentfulness, fear, surprises, love, anxiousness, pain, thrill, and many more. While the year passed might not seem the best of times right now, but there is no use spending the next one thinking about it.
For the next year, I leave you with this:
"Tomorrow is a new day. Hiding from your history only shackles you to it. We can't undo a single thing we have ever done, but we can make decisions today that push us towards the heading we need."
                Ending with, I know all of you are partying as its 12 AM now and no one is reading it. But, still, a very Happy New Year to all of you. May 2013 turns out to be the best year for all of us. Let's see 2013 as the most positive year of our life. I have a little fear in my heart about 2013 as how is it going to be for me in every terms. But, I have faith in God and faith in Universe. I will try to give my best and I hope I'll get the best in return. HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013 to ALL MY READERS OF BLOGS, FACEBOOK FRIENDS AND FOLLOWERS OF TWEETS. MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL. MAY I SERVE ALL OF YOU BETTER THAN LAST YEAR. 2012 will always remain as a good memory to me. Love you 2012. I will miss you just as I missed 2011 ,2010  throughout the year. :-) Last few hours to cherish 2012. Enjoy it.
                                                                WELCOME 2013 !!!!


2013 - I have A RESOLUTION !!!!


29th BLOG POST -->>

             So the 2012 - The Best year of my Life has ended and we are in 2013 - A Brand New Year. I wish everyone a Very Very Happy New Year and a Prosperous One. May everyone of you get and gain whatever you have dreamed in all the passed years. I am little confused about how my 2013 will be but I am confident about my effort and dedication which I'll put in to make it one of the best of all. From a child I became a Teenager and then I entered into my Adult mode of life which consists of struggle, effort and responsibilities. I also had love affairs which made me more matured than what I was. I had many fights and I got many new relations which has made me quite social for everyone in the horizon. There were many hard experiences which made me cry a lot but has made me so stronger that I don't cry anymore as I know that I can handle all the problems as I have already handled bigger ones in the past.
 
               2013 is here on the floors and everyone would have made a resolution. A resolution is not to make and forget. It is made to fulfill by striving and being heuristic for it throughout the year and the conclusion of it on the last day of the year should be positive. My Resolution for 2013 is to concentrate on my body and health. . I am the only one in my friend circle who not getting food very well. In a day. When I become hungry then I've been drinking milk three times in a day but not eting food. I have good height and cheerful face but I have no strength in my body. I want to develop the strength in me. Building the strength doesn't mean that I want to box my foes and enemies. This strength means that I want to build up the stamina in my body to run, exert pressure, dance and do physical work. I remember when my friends asked me to perform  or to do any work and I was just thinking that kaam to main kar lunga but kitni der tak kar paaunga and I was trying to find the another way to do work with the shortest duration. This is really sad.

               I am 21 years old and I should have so much strength that I can do more work than my father but I can't. This is shameful. I have decided that I will start tit bit of exercising in my bedroom itself whenever I'll get the time. It is not necessary to be so strict about the timing and punctuality in the initial phase itself. I will start with 15 minutes of exercising. After 1 month, 1/2 an hour and when I'll feel comfortable with 1/2 hour of exertion, I'll do it for 45 minutes daily. I hope that this will help me in building stamina and continuity in my body. I am not going to any gym and training center as I know that it is just a wastage of money for the boy who is not even exercising in the home. Once, I'll feel that I have dedicated a period of 1 year to my body and physique, I'll start going to the gym to be trained and be more fit than ever. For now, I don't need huge biceps and wide chest. I need a body which can at least bear my weight and my pressure. I don't want to wrestle with anyone or beat someone. I want to handle my body in a germane way.

One you start exercising, a smartness dwells up in your attitude. Your walking style, talking style and living style changes. This helps to build up your personality. An attitude of helping others develop automatically. I hope I'll be successful in accessing my Resolution and making me a perfect man with all my dreams and goals getting fulfilled and accomplished. Still, 50 to 60 years of life is waiting for me and I am having such a weak body that either I am sick or my head aches or my body pains or I am admitted in the hospital. I will also try to sleep for 5 to 6 hours daily as I sleep for a very short period of time which acts as a sweet poison to my body. It wasn't effecting formerly but I can feel some sensations of it now.
I hope I will be successful in being regular and responsible towards my Resolution of concentrating on my Body and Health. I will try to maintain consistency. I hope everyone of you is working on your Resolution. By the way What's your RESOLUTION FOR THIS YEAR? Please tell me.

She is no more:Death for Rape...!!!!



28th BLOG POST -->>


             No one can stop Rape in the city or state or in country. We will have to keep suffering it without fail. Finally, on 29th December, 2012, Delhi rape victim breathe her last. The whole nation mourned for her. It is a hard fact to believe that a victim of rape dies of something that no one has ever imagined for a rape victim. The most that we think is- Girl lost her virginity to someone whom she didn't want to. Hence, rape cases keeps on happening and we read it in newspaper and turn over the page thinking that it's just another news. But what happened with this girl has been a pitiful experience for all of us. Today's youth don't have time from their Coaching classes and Facebook but they showed responsibility this time by protesting at India Gate and other landmarks all over India. This is one of the rare moments when Indians made Government scared of us else all of us know that this is the era when Government is dominating us.
With the death of this 23 years old girl, what more can we talk about Rape and its consequences? What exactly will parents teach their sons and daughters? People blame parents of rapists but what fault are they committed to? The most that my parents tell me is- Beta, kabhi koi girlfriend mat patana. Kabhi kisi ladki ka peecha mat karna. Kabhi kuch aisa ho toh hamein bata dena hum baat kar lenge ladki k gharwalon se. Because they fear that I might stalk her and after the rejection from any girl, my ego might get hurt and in the anger of that, I might end up doing something as shameful as raping a mother. Now, if even after this, I end up raping a girl because of the so-called out-of-control Lust, what can my parents do in that? Yes, it would be their fault if after that, they come to defend me. They should directly ask court to hang me to death.

              To a girl, what can a parent ask for? To be at home when it's dark. But how much does day time assures that a girl will not be molested or raped? Go over the stats and you would find most of the cases when a girl is been raped by her boyfriend or by her boyfriend and his friends. Now, even if girls find this genuine and appropriate that they can go to a flat with their boyfriend as they find protection when he holds their hand, how can one protect them? Loving someone is fine. Keep that in your heart. Even if your family is conservative, let your parents know that you have started loving someone with whom you can spend your whole life with through a relative who is open minded or some family friends. Why is it so essential for you to get the guy by proposing him and then roaming with him all around the city? And now, no fucking idiot should tell me that why am I not saying anything to the boy who rapes the girlfriend and why am I only pointing my finger at girl. The reason is- couples keep on getting more physical day by day. They earn no money but they find themselves enough mature to fall into a relationship and then get involved in all these calamities. Later, when girl asks the boy to keep a limit over this relationship, his ego gets hurt and he ends up doing that last thing- Sex without protection.

If, at the very first moment you will stay away from relationship, no such moment will arrive. Then, even if you are somehow in a relationship, if you keep a limit over all these things, you will not get prone to any such forcible incidents. And do share with your parents, let your parents decide if your love is fine or not. Let them keep a proposal to the boy's parents than you keeping proposal to the boy. Do it how the legacy has been. Follow the footsteps of simple human beings. Keep your life simple. Don't get into complexities. Every thing in life comes with some risk, chose the options that has the least risk involved. Keeping a Question over the society that why do boys rape us even when we are in short dresses will not give you the answer. First answer the society why are you so passionate about wearing short dresses. First be eligible yourself to question the society.
I am not born as a boy to dominate girl and use my physique to rape them. But some boys have such mentality. They are influenced by some of the characters shown in movies or by their friends' thinking and approach towards girls. Who will guarantee us safety? Just after the rape of this Delhi girl on the night of 16th December, almost 23 rape cases have been registered in Delhi. Many would have gone unregistered. That means while the big protest was on at India Gate, some guys even then had guts to rape girls. Now, girls should get the answer as to who will have to take their care. They themselves or the police or the boys or the society. It is very shameful that we have to ask our girls to stay at home rather than assuring them safety on roads and at any point of time in 24 hours. I want to bring a change but now the situation has worsened to a situation that whenever a rape would happen, people will ask at what time it happened. If it would be before 8 PM, girl would be given sympathy else she would be blamed. This is where our country stands now.
To the boys who do this, I seriously want something bitter and worst to happen with them. I have read it many a times in many Holy Books that we get punishment for our sins in hell. I just want our court to read all the Holy Books and give the same kind of harsh punishment to these people on this Earth itself. Let the rapist be below 18 years of age, punish him too. At such age, he understands what raping is, how can you call him minor? Was he playing game and incidentally got his penis inserted into the girl? He did it purposely by forcing himself on the Girl, right? So, punish him without considering his age. And please, don't hang these idiots. There's no punishment in making someone struggle for 1-2 minutes and finally making them breathe their last. Seriously, cut their hands and penis and tattoo it on their forehead- "I am Satan". And let the world treat them. Let the girls beat them to death. The same girls whom these idiots found physically weak than them. Let them meet death by the hands of our Goddesses.
In the end, I pay my condolences to victim's family. I don't know how will they live a normal life from here. World didn't end in 2012 but it seriously took away their world. I hope all such victims of rape and their family also come and protest with people sitting at India Gate so that Government get to understand that this protest isn't closing down any soon. Victim's soul can never rest in Peace. I hope she is leading a very good life in heaven, at least now. Her plight has become every family's reason to be sad and to weep. The environment at my home and when I am with my friends has become as if we have lost our house member. I hope this is the last time that we are hearing a news that is as horrific as this. May God Bless Humanity!!!
(A article given by well known author)


Saturday, 29 December 2012

Help,I'm Sad Today....!!


27th BLOG POST -->>

     I'm just really not happy. Everytime heart cannot be cheerful and happy. My heart wasn't in a mood today..It made me sad..I don't know why I remembered all those pasts which I have already forgotten and want to forget. Today, I felt these words in my life- Kehne ko saath apne ek duniya chalti hai, par chupke is dil mein tanhai palti hai.. normally don't feel loneliness. In college I'm enjoying my life.. There is so much to do here in this college..I'm enjoying a lot..I utilize my each day here and try to learn something and know something more..I try to add something in my mind.. I remember when this evening, I went to Ratan's Dhaba , I was feeling terrible. I was feeling lonely and that made me remember the worst person of my life with whom once I shared the most beautiful moments. but ankur asked about then i was not possible to continue these memories.Its not whom I love or any girl …..Dont worry.. I was trying to concentrate on different things.. That was the time i take two glass of tea with Ravi, Niranjan, Abhishek and Ankur. ..just to be in myself and don't disturb myself with the thoughts which are going to put me again in depression..
            But today , again I felt the same blind environment around me..I wasn't thinking of that person today but something else was taking off something from me. .I was feeling like something is going away from me..I don't know what..I was feeling like this is the last day of my good times and from today my bad time has started.. Im very much worried..What made me so sad and puzzle.. I don’t want this type of thoughts to be passing in my life because they slow down my speed of living happily.. 16th & 17th January has been the first bad day of this year 2012 for me and after that was 1st December also.. I hope no other day come this way again.. I was remembering what all I thought for the whole day which made my heart sad and slow down but didn't found the victim of this..            God, my life is hell... I'm tired of being treating like a piece of crap by people who say take care.. I just really don't know what to do anymore.. Humanity has disappointed me.. My friends has disappointed me.. I'm just sick of being let down. I'm beginning to feel like people make the commitment but then they think I'm not worth it so they quit on me. I just don't understand why people who say they care feel the need to harm me. I'm tired of being hurt…
            But one thing sometimes that comes in my mind that special one in mind then I'm really hurt. I'm beginning to think it's beyond repair… It's really impossible to be positive right now when everyone who you thought supported you is now trying so hard to tear you down…for that special one in my mind these lines come:
“I shall pass my life With support of one memory
OF unfaithful!I shall take you off my heart
I thought your love To be my life
It was my mistake And your unfaithfullness
You were unfaithful But I won't be sad
Heart had to break,so it did
Why should I lament?
Your deceptive promises Have passed through my heart
My dreams scattered even Befor they could take shape
The tears flowing from my eyes Shall say
That I won't remain drowning
In the whirlpool of grief...”

Above these lines are the part of a bollywood songs… I need to find another outlet. Another source of life - somewhere that makes you feel like you're living your life completely and comfortably, the way you want it to be. Nothing can ever be perfect and if something isn't working out, sometime the answer is to move onto something else and find a different source to focus your energy on.
            No tension..I'm going to sleep just after this blog and have decided not to wake even a single second after posting up this blog..Will wake up tomorrow with a fresh mind and will work accordingly as planned.. This is the first time in 3.5 years that Im not feeling to study while the exams are going on..I don't know why Im taking this exam so innocuously even when I know that this is an important exam..God give me brain...


Friday, 28 December 2012

Chor Aaye Hum Wo Galiya Wo Lamhe


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                   Milke bichadna dastoor hai zindagi ka, Ek yahi kissa mashahoor hai zindagi ka,
                   Beetey huay pal kabhi laut kar nhi aate, Yahi sabsa bada kasoor hai zindagi ka.

  Now I have only few days left in college. I feel so delight but little bit sad to say goodbye to all of my friends here.  I don’t want to think about the fact that I will no longer be a college student. My life in college was so adventurous. So many things happened and I learned a lot from the college. Now I’m ready to fly. I’m ready to work and so excited to 07.01.2013 is my last day in college.
We shared our every feeling with one another in last four years. College presented me with a lot of good memories and off course a few bad ones. The one class tours,  the birthday celebrations, the movies with friends, getting fired by our teachers, running around taking print-outs for our lab records, copying  assignments just five minutes before submission, those wedding trips, sending SMS and missed calls during class, learning together during the series exams, the heated debates on each and every small thing, oh god! I’m going to badly miss these happy days! :( And one girl whom I love very much, I will miss her every moment. Some time we cried together, some time went on night outs, some time bunked classes together. Borrowed money from friends and never returned them. I’m just glad that my good memories heavily outweigh the bad one. I remember those last night studies for exams. We lived the most precious moments of our life in this campus.
I know that we all can never be together in future. So I am here today to share few things with all you.
We all made a lot of friends here. Few were close enough, few were good, and few were always there for us whenever we needed them. A far distance from my home when I asked for a brother you all held my hand. When I cried for parents you all gave me love and whenever I needed motivation you all showed me the ways. How fast these four years vanish with fun, love, study, joy and sorrow. It really surprises me. The campus, its beauty, our teachers, deans, chancellors and most expensive thing you all friends, you all are unforgettable to me. The thousands cell phone videos we made and the crazy pictures we took. Those days were amazing….!!!!

There were very few classmates that I had. I would like to name them for the part they played in my college life......, thanks for making me realize that there's still time (for me) to get into any relationship after those that happened between us. :-) Niranajn Kumar, Ankur Raina, Abhishek Mehra, Ravi Sevta, Vivek Kumar, Jitender Gaur, Rahul and Preety  for playing respective role in my College Life. Niranjan, Vivek and Ankur for helping me to expand my patience level. Without these friends, I can't imagine the 7th semester(last) to be funny and the way I wanted it to be. And now coming to the best buddies I had in the college- Niranjan-Only this guy had the potential to make me laugh whenever I was out of funny mood. Pranjali-It's very difficult for boys to handle the girl who is full of excitement and arguments, but it was very funny to deal with this part of yours. :-) And keep smiling as your smile decorate people around you. Sometimes it’s hard to speak about the person who has been the closest to you. I am facing the same currently. I can only say that God should give a Supportive Friend to everyone. That's all
I would like to thank you all for the precious contribution in my life.
In future we do not know that where we will be. So the most important thing which I would like to tell you that today is the day to live your life up to the fullest. We do not know that in future this day will come again or not. So do one thing if you have fight with someone go tell sorry, if any friend is sulked on you go hug him right now, love someone go tell them. This day will never come again in life.
In college time passes very beautifully but the leaving time does not remain beautiful in this sense that it touch your heart that you are leaving good friends and institution …….. In fact this in not mention able in the words. At last wishing good luck to all of you for your future I want to tell you that I love you a lot friends.

Tuesday, 25 December 2012

ITNA MAIN CHAHOON KOI KISI KO NA CHAAHE


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Strange but very true saying love stararts when you dont need it and love ends when you most need it. Love is like that the aim of love life is one place but the path to life is another. The days that were beautiful started fading up. The aroma that used to attract me, still attracted but when I moved towards it, it used to disappear. The dreams that trapped me in its beauty and glare stopped celebrating itself in my slumber moments because of love. The world started changing. The island that once showed me the horizons of endless water showed me a barren land which was still to taste a drop of water. The tree that used to give me mangoes of all sizes and shapes begun showing what empty branches are like. The moment she came in my life, I realized that I have got my life with positive thoughts. The rationality and diplomacy that the thoughts had started changing for her. The positivism that I had started turning into orbits of hatred where she was the center point. The life that had a life of itself started turning out to be lifeless. It was hard to identify myself. The boy who showered love wasn't getting a chance to meet his love for a moment. Yes, at this stage the love was at its climax. All the white started moving towards black, escaping the grayish shade.
It was first day when I fell in love at first sight. It was after some months and the love wasn't getting any better than any of the yesterdays. It started turning out to be the weakest asset that I ever possessed. But still a thought of getting a relationship failed was in my head. I asked her what was her reason to not continue the love that was fulfilling almost every desire of each other. But she had a answer. A private problem is that cannot be shared. But I hope you get a better one than me". For once, my mind did say,"Oh Yeah, bitch, every girl in this world is better than you. And to be truthful, even a bitch is better bitch than you." But the love dominated the situation, thought process, anger, frustration and even exasperation. The orgasm that one sees in the movies are just a great creativity of the makers. The reality tells what orgasm is. It is nothing except few seconds of fun that a person gets and then forget the emotional connect one had with the person but here was no much more like that.
Those days were some days, nobody understood my true love for her everyone said hey it is teenage crush you will laugh when you remember these days and you will get over it ,but i didn't care what people had to say about my true love, i loved her very much but unfortunately luck wasn't on my side and lost her but honestly i still can't get love…….Pyaar kya hai Dard kya hai Deewane samajhte hain Ishq mein jalne ka matlab Aashiq hi samajhte hain Only crazy can understand What is love and pain Only lovers can understand What it is to suffer in love Main tadapta rahoon Tujhe kuchh na kahoon Bin kahe bhi magar Main to reh na sakoon I keep squirming But do not tell you But I can not remain Without telling you…
Realy name of love is God and it's written in the bible God is love because he so love the world that he gave his begotten son that who so ever believe in him shall parish will receive d eternal life. God bless all lovers... .under Process. Please visit later

MERRY CHRISTMAS to ALL......!!


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Finally its the last week of this year and decade. A wonderful year of 2012 is coming to an end which showed us so many things (latest being Sachin Tendulkar's bye ;-) ). The last week of every year has one charismatic festival which I don't think you would have found difficult in figuring out. Merry Christmas to all of you. Christmas is a beautiful festival celebrated by Christians and all the followers of Jesus Christ. Christmas signifies the birth of Jesus Christ. Now a days Christmas is not only confined to Christians but by other religious and pious people too. I'm a Hindu and I am as enthusiastic as Christians for this festival. Jesus Christ is not only associated with Christians as the English Calendar which is followed globally is based on his birth. The Hindu Calendar and Islamic Calendar are followed by their followers itself but the Christian Calendar is followed by each and everyone so the importance of Jesus Christ and Christmas is very close to each and everyone in the world.


      Christmas greetings to all … peace and happiness for this festival of prayer and well being, for goodness and friendship to prevail, and for the greater good of humanity to find a warm home in each one of us …It’s been a roller coaster of a year but at last Christmas is here and a New Year is in sight.
       I would like to wish my family and friends a very Merry Christmas and extend a big thank you to everyone for their continued support and help during 2012
      May the Stars and Sunshine of Christmas bring peace and love in your life. The happiness and sacredness that the Lord Jesus wanted everyone to possess should be a matter of fact and not fiction/myth. Let the question of God existing or not remain aside but on the mark of Year's last festival, trust in the God and the plans that he makes for us. Every Christmas, we pray God to send Santa Claus to our homes with the gift that we are waiting/dying for. As a child, all of us demanded something from our parents continuously. But they never used to give us in closet as they didn't want us to become adamant and someone not valuing things. Finally, before the arrival of Christmas, they used to ask us to write what we wanted on a chit of paper so that they can give it to Santa Claus. We used to write it. On the night of 24th, when we used to get ready for sleep, parents used to ask us to pray God and sleep so that, by the morning, when we would be waking up, we'll find gifts under our pillow. Many of us after praying never used to sleep for next 2-3 hours in an expectation of seeing how Santa Claus comes in the dress and places the gift. But we failed because of the amount of slumber we loved then. :-) Now, we prefer Facebook/Twitter over slumber.
         Finally, in the morning, when we used to wake up, we used to find the toy that we asked for either under our pillow or on our bedside with few chocolates. Then, our parents used to make us bathe and pray God to thank him for sending Santa Claus with the gift. They never told us that they themselves are Santa for us who purchase the gift and never tell us that they are doing this favour ove us and not Santa. :-) And, after that we visit our Christian friends to meet them on the occasion and used to discuss as to what they wrote on their piece of paper/message/sms etc for thwir friends and how they got their favorite toy. Some of us even carried our new toy to showcase it in front of our friends and boast about it. :-).But I become so sad now in college our friends not celebrating this festival much more. They wish to each other not enjouying much...:( :( This is how I remember Christmas every year. And with the amount of love I have for this festival, I don't think that I will ever stop celebrating or prioritizing it. I love this festival to the core. Actually, I, since my childhood, have not been into celebration of festivals but I always respected every festival that came in my way. And I never knew what religion and caste were until my 10th std. This helped me a lot in developing up as a human I am.
A Merry Christmas to all of you. Do celebrate the day and try to make it sure that you do something different from every usual day.

Saturday, 22 December 2012

EVEN AN ANIMAL WON'T BEHAVE SO


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  (Note: These articles are written based on social network comments .)
           What has happend in Delhi is not acceptable at all.....!!!! I would say these kind of accused should not be simply hanged because that would be just a simple death.What about the girls who has gone through all this ? She & her family has to face this nonsense through her life for which she was not responsible for.And today's society people still treat these victims like a dirt as if they have made this crime intentionally.What is the mistake of a girl..??? Just that she is a girl or she stepped in a wrong bus..or just because she weres a jeans or just because they also have dreams goals which they want to achive....?????
Sometimes, speaking and writing does not do any change in the world. Some times, even sacrificing life does not bring a change. The people who blast bombs here and there to kill people also do it to bring a change though that change is a mere stupidity at demand. But, even then the change does not take place. Now, if you say that I speaking or someone speaking about the Rape cases in personal or on Internet has no meaning attached to it, then what exactly do you want me to do? Cut my penis and make it sure that at least I am not raping anyone in future? Or make all my friends sacrifice their organ so that it ensures that the probability of rapes has lessened down? What exactly can someone do in such scenario except talking and showing sympathy? Is there any other way out?
         Then there are others who say that just by blackening your Profile Picture or by signing an online petition nothing is going to change. Then tell us how can we bring the change. We are seriously ignorant about the issue. I want to know as to what at my personal best level can be done to eradicate this mentality from the society. According to me, spreading awareness is all that I at this level can do. What more than this? Nothing. Some say that today we are concerned about Delhi rape case just as we were about Guwahati's molestation case but we will forget it soon and get away with our life. No, so what exactly do you want people to do? Keep talking about the issue till the last breathe? Or leave job and sit recluse to show sympathy and give tribute to the victims? One has to move on. Even victim, him/herself will have to move on. Everyone has to earn their bread and butter. Isn't it? So how are some expecting all to talk about the issue for a long time?
Which world are we living....Till date if a girl is born people are not happy.They just want guys either kill(abort) or after birth sell if its a girl.... :( :(  Females are more loving caring and trust worthy than a guy. They why still this male dominated world...????? It not only in human life...,Any one who ownes a dog will also know that female dogs are more faithful than male ones. Till now in this stupid world people say girls should not were jeans,should cover their face....!! Should put the head down and walk. Cant go any were before sun rise. Have to be back home before 5:00 pm before it darken...!! What the hell has happened to the all the men and women in this world...!! What is going wrong with our society, our people. Naari ke roop mein hum pooja karte hain - Durga, Kali, Lakshmi ki .. jo shraddha hum yahan pradaan karte hain, apne desh ki mahilaon pe kyun nahin karte .. !!!"
At my personal level, I ensure that the women/girls related to me are safe. I make it sure that my mother is not traveling in local trains at night time. I ask her to stay at her friends' house if I find that it's already past 9. To my female friends, I make it sure that once darkness gets prevailed all around, they stay at my place for the whole night rather than risking their life by traveling at 10 PM in the night. I make them call their father and ask my mother to make them feel safe about their daughter that they are at the right place. To my female friends, I keep on asking them to protect themselves as much as they can. I even walk with them till station every time I can. What more can I do? This I think is possible at the personal level. And if you ask me about changing the mindset of people, I am also trying to do it. Every blog that I write indicates some or the another message. About the safety of women, I have also written as small a thing as how boys keep their hands on a girl's body which keeps killing the soul of the girl.
  Have you ever seen me uploading pictures of my female friends or sisters or cousins? Have I ever done that? I am that sensitive when it comes to women. I know that a morphed picture itself can violate a girl's soul for whole life. Now, when we have finally known that our country has gone to that level where Gang rape is a common news, who will have to take the step? When I take these several steps which does not guarantee any protection, will not girls and boys have to protect themselves? Will not 8 PM be made the final deadline to be at home? The normal college timings or office timings are from morning 9 to evening 6. Why? So that we can reach home by sunset. What if you chose to be partying in dark or watching evening shows of movies? Who has put ourselves at risk? Rapists or we? Rapists are rapists- it's their job to rape. Just as robber robs, rapists rape. Don't we protect ourselves from robbers? Why not from rapists then? I know you would be saying that I am talking as if the victim is criminal him/herself. But, there's no other option to protect ourselves. Seriously! Ye hamein samajhna hi hoga.   CONTINUE ...

Sunday, 9 December 2012

"JO PAL PAL CHALTI RAHE ZINDGI HAI"


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    Jo Pal Pal Chalti Rahe Zindagi Hai….
 Jo Har Pal Jalti Rahe Roshni Hai….
      Jo Pal Pal Khilti Rahe Mohabbat Hai….
                 Jo Kisi Pal Saath Na Chhode:Wo Dost Hai….!!


             The last days of my college has begun. There are more 4 weeks to attend and then, all these friends will become a past to me. If I don't return back in this college for M.Tech., even the campus and all the moments passed out here will become past. When M.Tech comes in my mind, I am too surprised to get such a unique suggestion from my friends only during laughing moments… Its really worthy. I still remember when we were going to have dinner and during comments on facebook wall post that we must do M.Tech from this college to live together…ha ha so funny. The routine in which I am inhabited to, will be changed. As soon as I realize that there is not even 30 days to cherish the moments with my college friends, several memories starts haunting me. The moments of past when I left those people whom I liked and loved so much starts revolving around me. I start feeling nervous. Nervous not for the future but the way I have moved further with life. I am a human being. In the same way, all these people who are human being had emotions just as I had. But, the way I had to leave some of them behind to carry myself ahead was really painful.Even after 3.5 years latter I was amazing and different for all of my college friends, I don’t know everybody say that I’m a Single piece and no one is like me. For me, I was an ambitious person with a stringent heart. I need to melt myself a little. But I don't because there are still years ahead to live. I'll meet many more people. I'll make some more close friends. Then, I'll have to leave them too for the next target. Again an emotional drama everywhere around and then, again an accusation of being materialistic will have to dealt with. 
           Recently,I was in Hissar with my parents with their friends in Mehta Holi  Hospital. Then we visit the ITI college Mandi Adampur, Hissar where my mother had completed GRADUATION in 1986 and were shared college days. After reaching at home, she gave me some photographis that were captured during GRADUATION. Photos were not so clear But all this was enough to let. Then she says that succes is my childhood dream and I want to make it real for me. I know that I will be left by my friends but still I will continue because. " Ye Sab Dost toh aate jaate rehte hai". These dudes keep coming and going.This last 8 words uttered from her mouth is exactly what I feel about myself and my life. There are so many friends whom I can't even count and name. There are many of them whom I never call but they keep on calling me because they had someone called "Parveen" who played a big part in their life. For me, even they played a very big part but the problem is that they "played" and they are not "playing". I always try to focus of things which are in the tense of "-ing". The things which are -ed and the things which are about to happen are the things I am least bothered about. Currently, I know that these friends are moving towards my past with each day. For this, I try to be around them as much as I can. I try to make them laugh as much as I can. I share some emotional and personal experiences with them to make them know something about "Bloody Me". I do it because once when they will be left, it will be hard to organize a Re-union and penetrate each other's brain in the same manner as we do today. So, its better to spend as much glossy moments as possible today rather than going in the tomorrow and then crying for the incomplete past.  


Ek Din Zindagi Aise Mukam Pe Pahunch Jayegi
Dosti To Sirf Yaadon Me Reh Jayagi..
Har Cup Chay Yaad Doston Ki Dilayegi
Aur Haste Haste fir Aankhein Nam Ho Jayegi..
Office Ke Chamber Me Classroom Nazar Ayegi..
Par Chahne Pe Bhi Proxy Nahi Lag Payegi.
Paisa To Bahut Hoga..
Magar Unhe Lutane Ki Whajah Hi Kho Jayagi..
Jee Le Khulke Is Pal Ko Mere Dost
Kyunki Zindagi In Palo Ko Fir Se Nahin Dohrayegi…..I’ll miss you dear
friends

         I am little selfish( or you can say that I am little more inclined towards) when it comes to selecting People and Life. I select Life. I know it is going to end in some years. But, even these people are going to end one by one. :-) Right? I know it is very hard to think this way. And I am facing a lot of difficulty in writing this on a social platform. But, when it is me, I have no doubts in revealing my original self. One day, either they will die or I'll. Who'll remember me once when I'll die? No One. What they'll remember is the way I lead my life. If it would be a failing end, they will give a bad example of mine for years. If it would be successful, they'll give my instances to many for years and the same will continue. I want to remain Immortal for them. I don't want to end in time-being. It would be good if I'll go where they are going, I'll join where they are joining, it would be good even if I'll stay where they are staying but, will it be nice if I fail after being with them for this short while? Obviously, No. So, its better to concentrate on my life first. And then on these persons who are very close to me. Closeness develops because we allow it to. If we allow ourselves to be stronger while parting the closeness and destroying the magnetic force between us, we can succeed easily. Yes, there will be a big emotional turmoil but anything which is harder is done by crossing the paths of hurdles and obstacles. Right? 

            But at last i'm thinking i'm thinking too straight forward as open minded thought that its not about being selfish ... coming soon (its time to sleep )
            I hope that I'll meet the best people of my life ahead in my journey towards being immortal for these people. But, I don't expect them to turn around when they see me ever again in my path. I would feel a little pain when I'll see them ignoring me but it will not change me much. It will make me work harder because I'll see my past in a glance and I'll remember all the powerful and firm decisions I took then to reach where I am today. Even when I see myself today and compare it to what I was in 2009, I find a big rise in the graph of my improvement. And this improvement came because I left some close people behind and moved forward. At every step of life, I had to dump the people and go ahead with LIFE. And its beautiful to see the number of steps I walked after calling that re-starting point the End point. From that point which I claimed to be the end, turned out to be the start for me. But for those people, it was the End point because they choose relationship before life. Today, they have friends whom they can call at 2 AM. I don't have any. I don't even need any. I have a life. I have that in which I find myself secure and honored.           
           In few weeks, I'll have to dump some close people again. But to remain immortal in their memory and to be the winner in the race of life and people. I want to run ahead than my life and reach the destination before it reaches there and announces my retirement(death). So, I am just praying God to give me strength to take decisions of leaving these gem-friends of my life and move ahead with life towards new people. Let's see what God has decided for me. Stay Updated with this through my blog. :-)  
           Thanks. And, I want to know your priority- Life or People. Am I the only person who runs for life and not for people or there are many who are "so-called selfish" but they aren't? :-)


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