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Currently, I am sort
of depressed. I don't know how and when this bloody creature did touch me but
it managed to touch. I don't love being depressed and being low but the
situations in my life has propelled me to be one of the victims. I still create
jokes with friends and I smile just as usual, but it doesn't come from heart,
it comes from my fake self who shows others that I am the most happiest of all.
I try to control my emotions but in the end, I am a human being and expression
is my tool.
Smiling face does not denote that the person is a happy soul. A person
smiles because of any of the following reasons: - when he is really very happy
or he is trying to hide his sadness. Whenever I smile, I smile because I am
happy from within but when I am not then I still manage to give a fake smile. I
try to make it sure that when I am around, people should feel motivated and
spirited. If I manage to do so then I feel very good about myself but I feel
like blowing my head off if I see that people are sad because I am sad. People
love to be around the person who keeps laughing and making others laugh. People
ignore the person who is a depressing soul and a person who keeps complaining
about everything in life.
Title of this blog
post is “A Cat and Dog Life”. I hope no know one is understand except the smart
one. A cat and dog life is a life full of quarrels and conflicts. Rest you’ll understand
after reading post. Now a day a specific type of environment is going like as
“To put or set the cat among pigeons” is to cause trouble especially by doing
or saying something that is unexpected or cause confusion. It’s a colloquial
expression. Every other person does job. Every other person wants to change his
job. Every other person has an evil boss. Most of them are unsatisfied with
his increments, bonuses and promotions. So, if you are facing the same
problem and you are showing off that you are the most tortured person on the
Earth, it’s just over-acting and nothing else. In case of college every
under-graduate student is struggling with assignments, presentations and
projects. Where every student is being tortured by his teachers and are
frustrated because of exams and dipping percentage. So, if you are facing the
similar problem then you need not prove the world that you are a hard-working
soul. Here we should try to show people that in spite of working in such an
atmosphere that we live so cheerfully without any tension and pressure. That
will make you an inspiration and instance for others. People will love to know
from you that how you manage your personal and professional
life paralleled. But if you are crying about the job you have to perform
just like any other person then you will be ignored and kicked.
Ek khavat suno “If
you are like a cat on hot bricks”, means you are actually very nervous or
worried. Personally I try to spread as much love and happiness as possible. I want
people to be happy. I want people to convert their unhappiness and sorrow into
cheer and zeal. So a face should be smiling even if you are dealing with one of
the major problem of your life. When I see that a person is sad or low, I try
to give him some beautiful examples of some great people who resolved their
problem in a distinct way and started living a happier life than before. But
sometimes I face some situations when I'm enforced to show that loser
expression on my face. I am not a great actor or personality like Amitabh
Bachchan or Ajay Devgn who can conduct love through his face even when hatred
against someone is creeping in my heart at the same time. So, it becomes
tougher for me to react in such a situation.
Even butter would not
melt in her mouth. :-) means everyone have the look of an honest, moral,
well-behaved person. When you are in pain, you expect your friends to
understand you. Your expression says it all but here none of my friend
understood that there is something wrong with me. This pained me more. A human
being always needs a person who can give his shoulder to him when he wants to
cry but I have no one in life. I can't call anyone to tell my problem and get a
beautiful solution. But, whom can I share all this with? Neither do I have any
close cousin with whom I can share all this. I don't have a friend who can
understand me even when I hide my pain or doubt. I don't have anyone. I am in
depression and I am trying to come out of it. If reader expects that I’ll share
my pain I can’t do that. I not want to explode everything in front of my Blog
Readers. I can give a little relief to myself by doing other works.
During writing this
blog actually what I was doing chatting with Mr. Dinesh Kaushik on whatsapp and
working on my blog. It was nice to talk Mr. Dinesh Kaushik and Mr. Ankur
Shekhawat on whatsapp and Mr. Pardeep Verma on phone. Every time talk to Mr.
Govind Sharma is funny. What we’re doing generally passing jokes and comments
along with shahyari on general issues. After 3 years we’re in contact on
Facebook. After two and half month I used my phone and contacted to any
classmate from my college life. Mr. Rahul Gupta is the only one who contact
every month. And was suddenly surprise to get a call from Mr. Jitender Gaur. He
call me only to tell that “Us Kea Ache Din Jane Wale Hay” because he is engaged
now. Once again Congratulations dear. Every time when I was calling to him
phone was picked by his mother. And the idiot
never gives a call back. Hope so in future all these will live in contact.
Thanks
Parveen Kumar
Sahrawat
