A Cat and Dog Life....!!

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Currently, I am sort of depressed. I don't know how and when this bloody creature did touch me but it managed to touch. I don't love being depressed and being low but the situations in my life has propelled me to be one of the victims. I still create jokes with friends and I smile just as usual, but it doesn't come from heart, it comes from my fake self who shows others that I am the most happiest of all. I try to control my emotions but in the end, I am a human being and expression is my tool.

       Smiling face does not denote that the person is a happy soul. A person smiles because of any of the following reasons: - when he is really very happy or he is trying to hide his sadness. Whenever I smile, I smile because I am happy from within but when I am not then I still manage to give a fake smile. I try to make it sure that when I am around, people should feel motivated and spirited. If I manage to do so then I feel very good about myself but I feel like blowing my head off if I see that people are sad because I am sad. People love to be around the person who keeps laughing and making others laugh. People ignore the person who is a depressing soul and a person who keeps complaining about everything in life.

Title of this blog post is “A Cat and Dog Life”. I hope no know one is understand except the smart one. A cat and dog life is a life full of quarrels and conflicts. Rest you’ll understand after reading post. Now a day a specific type of environment is going like as “To put or set the cat among pigeons” is to cause trouble especially by doing or saying something that is unexpected or cause confusion. It’s a colloquial expression. Every other person does job. Every other person wants to change his job. Every other person has an evil boss. Most of them are unsatisfied with his increments, bonuses and promotions. So, if you are facing the same problem and you are showing off that you are the most tortured person on the Earth, it’s just over-acting and nothing else. In case of college every under-graduate student is struggling with assignments, presentations and projects. Where every student is being tortured by his teachers and are frustrated because of exams and dipping percentage. So, if you are facing the similar problem then you need not prove the world that you are a hard-working soul. Here we should try to show people that in spite of working in such an atmosphere that we live so cheerfully without any tension and pressure. That will make you an inspiration and instance for others. People will love to know from you that how you manage your personal and professional life paralleled. But if you are crying about the job you have to perform just like any other person then you will be ignored and kicked.

Ek khavat suno “If you are like a cat on hot bricks”, means you are actually very nervous or worried. Personally I try to spread as much love and happiness as possible. I want people to be happy. I want people to convert their unhappiness and sorrow into cheer and zeal. So a face should be smiling even if you are dealing with one of the major problem of your life. When I see that a person is sad or low, I try to give him some beautiful examples of some great people who resolved their problem in a distinct way and started living a happier life than before. But sometimes I face some situations when I'm enforced to show that loser expression on my face. I am not a great actor or personality like Amitabh Bachchan or Ajay Devgn who can conduct love through his face even when hatred against someone is creeping in my heart at the same time. So, it becomes tougher for me to react in such a situation.

Even butter would not melt in her mouth. :-) means everyone have the look of an honest, moral, well-behaved person. When you are in pain, you expect your friends to understand you. Your expression says it all but here none of my friend understood that there is something wrong with me. This pained me more. A human being always needs a person who can give his shoulder to him when he wants to cry but I have no one in life. I can't call anyone to tell my problem and get a beautiful solution. But, whom can I share all this with? Neither do I have any close cousin with whom I can share all this. I don't have a friend who can understand me even when I hide my pain or doubt. I don't have anyone. I am in depression and I am trying to come out of it. If reader expects that I’ll share my pain I can’t do that. I not want to explode everything in front of my Blog Readers. I can give a little relief to myself by doing other works.

During writing this blog actually what I was doing chatting with Mr. Dinesh Kaushik on whatsapp and working on my blog. It was nice to talk Mr. Dinesh Kaushik and Mr. Ankur Shekhawat on whatsapp and Mr. Pardeep Verma on phone. Every time talk to Mr. Govind Sharma is funny. What we’re doing generally passing jokes and comments along with shahyari on general issues. After 3 years we’re in contact on Facebook. After two and half month I used my phone and contacted to any classmate from my college life. Mr. Rahul Gupta is the only one who contact every month. And was suddenly surprise to get a call from Mr. Jitender Gaur. He call me only to tell that “Us Kea Ache Din Jane Wale Hay” because he is engaged now. Once again Congratulations dear. Every time when I was calling to him phone was picked by his mother.  And the idiot never gives a call back. Hope so in future all these will live in contact.

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Parveen Kumar Sahrawat