Why are GIRLFRIENDS not ASHAMED of LOOTING their BOYFRIENDS?

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What's the average age bar in which boys and girls fall into the so-called Relationship that has lots of monetary love involved in it? Nowadays, children right from 5th std has started getting involved in affairs because parents don't hesitate in providing them mobile at such a juvenile age. But, the average age bar is 16 years to 22. Right? No, this is not a result of any survey but my own observations and I don't think that anything can be better faithful numbers than those given by me. A deep deep sorry to all of you who read the previous sentence. :-) At this age, my generation claims to understand every thing about love. They start roaming here and there with their hand in hand and believe that they know what an eternal word like LOVE means. Either God of Love has stopped working over the department given to him or human-beings defeated him by challenging him continuously. :-)

                The last stupid so-called affair in which my one friend had- didn't involve a single penny in it.  It progressed for 15 days to end like the submersion of Titanic but still, he didn't let a single penny from his pocket to be spent over her. Everyone who hears this sees his with disbelief and feels as if he is one of the most undeserving boyfriends; as if he was excited to get the title of "Most Desirable". Huh! If money is all that expresses love, its better to stay out of it. If money is all that tells that I care for the person, its better that you go and lay down with Ambani's and Tendulkar's sons. I, being a son of middle-class family, can not afford such relationship. Girls have started believing that boyfriend will have to pay every time they will go for an outing, dinner, shopping or trip. Even if girl friend buys bangles, artificial jewel, sandals or any damn cheapiyapa (Sorry for the English version of ...... that I had to create :-)), boy friend pays for it. I have even overheard,"Friends k saath shopping karne mein apna kharch hota hai. Boyfriend k saath jaane mein sub uska isliye main us hi k saath jaana pasand karti hoon".

                Just answer a question. When both the boy and girl are in college, both have no source of income, all money that they have is a subset of their Pocket money, then how does a boy turns up to be the one who pays for every expenses? In which religion is this been said? Idiots, cheapos, it's husband who has to pay every thing that his wife needs. That's a relationship that is considered in every "dharma". This boyfriend-girlfriend thing does not exist anywhere in any worthy and respectful holy book. So, please stop using your boyfriend as a husband. He is not. And even you know that you are not sure about marrying him. Because, when you will see that your father has arranged someone who already earns 40,000 a month and is a stable person in life, you will leave this poor guy who kept on spending all his pocket money over you. Shame girlfriends!!!

                Secondly, a girl of any kind- intelligent or idiot knows that the pocket money which their boy friend gets is NOT more than 1000-1500. Still, when they see that their boyfriend is buying expensive gifts for them, they never neglect. Why? Because this is what they need from boyfriend; to spend on all those areas over which they can't spend themselves because of their low pocket money. So cheap. Each and every Indian knows that the price of petrol is increasing like population in our country. Still, these girlfriends will never say NO to their boyfriend when he'll assure that he will take her for a long ride on the outskirts of the city. They know that their boyfriend has brought them to one of the expensive hotels of the town which the girlfriend's father could himself can't afford but still she will never say to her boy to not to spend so much. Each and every girl knows that the boyfriend is stealing money from home to entertain them, every girl knows that he may be doing some illegal activities to get these amount of money to spend over her but still, they have no concern about this.

                When both of you are non-working and as you bloody love-birds say that we love each other equally and in infinity, then show it equally. Both of you pay equally every time you are out. Because boy friend isn't earning anything. He is in the same situation as you. Then how can you let him spend his father's money over you? Already his father is struggling with the inflation and mehengayi and feeding your boyfriend, his siblings, his mother and his grandparents. Also attending several guests at home. Saving for his daughter's wedding. Now, you expect your boyfriend's father to also take care of you just because you are a temporary "material" in his son's life. Huh! When its your boyfriend's birthday, he feeds you in an expensive hotel and shows you movie in a Multiplex. When its your birthday, even then he feeds you and shows you a movie. Who the hell has invented this concept?

                Girlfriends, can't you pay for what you eat with him? Can't you pay for your movie ticket? Can't you pay for whatever you purchase and let your boyfriend pay the money? Are you so poor and down-market? Can't you recharge your cell to call him? Why do you make him call you every time? Can't you pay for petrol equally every time you play a part of pillion behind him? These girlfriends don't even feel ashamed when they are been gifted with expensive gifts like gold ear-rings, handset, dresses, wristwatch etc. They take it happily (I don't understand as to why parents of these girls don't ask them about the things at home which they have not purchased for them).  And astonishingly, if you'll blame these girlfriends for looting their boyfriend, they'll say that its boyfriend's fault that he spends over them and not theirs. Shameful!

                Girls, if you are using your boyfriends' money, at least make it sure that you are utilizing his money at the right place. This I am saying only on the condition that you have dropped down to a cheap level where you'll make him spend over you, only then is this applied that I am saying. Make it sure that he is not gifting you a 15000 Rs cell phone but is paying 15000 of your total college fees. At least that will save your father's money. You will at least save someone's money. Make it sure that he is paying the D-Mart bill of your house's monthly shopping. That will help your parents a lot. Don't do this sin purposely of letting your boyfriend spend this amount of money over you. Stop trying to be innocent. I don't know why these stupid boyfriends want to prove their manliness by spending on these girlfriends. Can't they show it by talking to his and her parents and proving them by reaching a level where he starts achieving more than his-and-her father achieved in their life? If you are a man, do this rather than feeding your girlfriend (who is purposely enjoying benefits) by your old father's money who is already dying in mehengaai. Stop stealing at home. Stop asking for 5000 Rs at home when you know that the Semester form's fee is just 2000 rs. Stop looting your parents.

                In the end, let me tell all of you what my blunt opinion is. A boy wants to enjoy a physical relationship that he can never get except from a prostitute/call-girl. And this is very risky. Hence he stalks a girl that he likes. A girl retorts with YES because she needs money in life to enjoy the pleasure of life which she can never get with the kind of pocket-money she gets. She is happy with the condom-clad penis getting penetrated into her every Valentine's, birthday, New Year, trip etc. And in return, boy is happy with all the expenditure that he does. This is the only purpose for which this bloody boyfriend-girlfriend wala relationship comes into existence by colliding against all the "dharmas", "religions" and "Holy-books". If you feel that I am wrong, tell me in which boyfriend-girlfriend-wala-relationship has boobs not been sucked and penis not been touched? If your relationship is over a year old and there has been no physical involvement, then I must say that boy and girl are in pure and sweet love that I believe love really is. But if there has been unhooking of bra and unbuttoning of jeans in a private room then... it's all LUST and BEHUDAPANN. That's ALL!!!

P.S.: I don't regret a single word said in the post. I want girls to know that they are also a robber with their boyfriend every time he steals money from his mother's purse or father's wallet. And there is no concept where boyfriend is the only one who has to pay. You are an equal partner to him. To boyfriends, I would say, don't hesitate in sharing the link of this blog post with your girlfriend. This is truth and your girlfriend should realize it. And stupid you, control your lust. Remember, they are as lusty as you. So, let them also pay for the same- physical exploration and fun.

P.P.S.: This post is not generalized for all. It is for the targeted boyfriends/girlfriends. Those boys/girls who have never been involved in any relationship can replace the word "girls/boys" with "girlfriends/boyfriends" wherever it is been used in the post. :-) I never generalize every one.

Thanks.

YOU ARE UNIQUE

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Yesterday, when I was enjoying the shopping at District Centre, Delhi then I visited book centre. Where I noticed a book a “YOU ARE UNIQUE”. I read something about it on net. This book remains me my old days. Did you know that you are unique? There is no other person in all the world who is exactly like you! You're different. You're special. But maybe you don't really feel like that.

Written by Dr A P J Abdul Kalam, this book You Are Unique, is dedicated to the mastery of your unique self, developing creative leadership, creating outstanding institutions and the art of achieving happiness by giving happiness to others.

The book shows the way that Greatness exists in all of us. It's simply a matter of pulling that greatness out. The book helps to build self-confidence and strength to achieve your goals.

Maybe, if I have all the riches and wealth in the world, I wouldn’t know God, for I would only depend on the material things that I’m drowned on. Maybe, if I was a six-footer man, I wouldn’t know how to look up and appreciate every little thing. Maybe, if I have a prince-liked handsome face, I would have a hard time looking at the inner beauty of someone. Maybe, if I am a great visual artist, I don’t have one of the talents, that I enjoy doing right now. Maybe, if I get all that I want, I’ll starve more and won’t know contentment. And maybe, if a day would always go perfect, there’s nothing more that I could live for, the morrow.

The thoughts of A.P.J. Abdul Kalam, in You Are Unique, with their heartfelt sincerity, chiselled logic and experienced intuition are amazing lamps on the path of life, giving strength to seek one's Unique Self. This book draws an unforgettable blue print of success for all. One lesson that shimmers from every page of this book is hope. Whether in failure or in success, there is always a clear vision of future. In human life as well as in the corporate world, the value of vision, leading to planning, followed by action should not be underestimated. The success smiles on those who dream and act.

In the first place, you know that police and government departments use fingerprints to identify people. They put some ink on your fingers and press them on paper, and they can tell by the patterns that your fingers leave if you really are the person you say you are. That's because no two people in the world have the same fingerprints.

And that's only one way you are different. Some scientists in Japan have discovered that your lips are special too. Just like your fingerprints, your lips have little markings on them, little grooves in the skin ... and everyone has a different pattern.

And there's something else that really is well known ... no one else smells exactly like you. That's not an insult. It's a fact. That's why police tracking dogs can follow one person's trail for long distances just by the smell they leave behind on the ground they touch.

But that's only a small beginning of the ways you are different -- you are unique. Eyes can be used for identification -- just like fingerprints -- because every eye in the world is different. One doctor in the United States made a study of what is inside of people ... and he discovered that even your stomach is different from everyone else's. No two are exactly the same size or shape. But being different -- being unique -- does tell you something. So many people these days are feeling like they are nothing more than a number on a computer card somewhere in a government file. But God says you are more than that. You're a special design. You were made special. Because that is the way God created you. You're different. You are not just a number. And because you're different ... YOU are important. Maybe not important to the government -- maybe not important to those other people standing around you in the crowd -- but you are important to God. Because he is the one who designed you. He is the one who made you different. He is the one who made you unique. Some special lines given related to book title are:

"Think what a remarkable, unduplicatable, and miraculous thing it is to be you! Of all the people

who have come and gone on the earth, since the beginning of time, not ONE of them is like

YOU!

No one who has ever lived or is to come has had your combination of abilities, talents,

appearance, friends, acquaintances, burdens, sorrows and opportunities.

No one’s hair grows exactly the way yours does. No one’s finger prints are like yours. No one

has the same combination of secret inside jokes and family expressions that you know.

The few people who laugh at all the same things you do, don’t sneeze the way you do. No one

prays about exactly the same concerns as you do. No one is loved by the same combination of

people that love you – NO ONE!

No one before, no one to come. YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY UNIQUE!

Enjoy that uniqueness. You do not have to pretend in order to seem more like someone else.

You weren’t meant to be like someone else. You do not have to lie to conceal the parts of you

that are not like what you see in anyone else.

You were meant to be different. Nowhere ever in all of history will the same things be going on

in anyone’s mind, soul and spirit as are going on in yours right now.

If you did not exist, there would be a hole in creation, a gap in history, something missing from

the plan for humankind.

Treasure your uniqueness. It is a gift given only to you. Enjoy it and share it!

No one can reach out to others in the same way that you can. No one can speak your words.

No one can convey your meanings. No one can comfort with your kind of comfort. No one can

bring your kind of understanding to another person.

No one can be cheerful and lighthearted and joyous in your way. No one can smile your smile.

No one else can bring the whole unique impact of you to another human being.

Share your uniqueness. Let it be free to flow out among your family and friends and people you

meet in the rush and clutter of living wherever you are. That gift of yourself was given you to

enjoy and share. Give yourself away!

See it! Receive it! Let it tickle you! Let it inform you and nudge you and inspire you! YOU ARE

UNIQUE!"

You need to stop comparing yourself to other people. Some people are great singers, some are really smart and others are great athletes. But none of them are, or ever could be you. You are one of a kind. So stop comparing yourself to other people. You can’t be them any more than they can be you. A message of spirituality, honesty, being unselfish and the value of giving emerges from these pages as from his life. The world has changed and there is a need for awakening together the head and the heart. While poems touch the heart and leave a deep impression, his prose leads you to think how to go beyond the rock walls of conditioning, perceptions and prejudices to achieve success and fulfillment. Clearly presented thoughts, in You Are Unique, become our inspiration and constant companion, flashing 'upon the inward eye' at our decision making, vision creating as well as ordinary moments of life. The style is such as if you are talking to Dr Kalam, asking and getting answers for your questions, with graphic depiction of thoughts and concepts. Visually appealing, illuminating, dotted with his simple and charming experiences of life, you will love to read this book again and again.

Thanks :-) :-)

Emotions Are Part Of Life

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People say that what we are all seeking is meaning for life. I think that what we're really seeking is an experience of being alive, so that our life experiences on the purely physical plane will have resonance within our innnermost being and reality, so that we can actually feel the rapture of being alive.

You are not your “Emotions.” You have emotions – the ability to feel within yourself as a reaction to what you hear, see, taste, smell, and feel means your senses. Now, this may surprise you, but you have the ability to choose the way you feel /your emotional state.

                First, it is absolutely vital that you understand that you are a three-part being: spirit, soul and body. Everyone who has ever been born into this world has these same three parts.

                The spirit is the part of a person that makes him alive. When the physical body dies, the spirit leaves the body. That spirit does not cease to exist; it leaves this physical world and goes to the spiritual world – what the Bible calls “heaven” or “hell.”

The soul is the part of a person which is his mind, his will, and his emotions.The brain is physical – a part of the body – it processes the information received from the physical senses. It is not the mind. The mind has taken in information from the brain.

The body is your earth suit. Your spirit and soul live in your body. One must have a body to be alive in this world. Without a body, your spirit and soul must go to one of the other two places. We need little explanation about our bodies because most people are more aware of their bodies than they are of the spirits and souls. However, we must realize that the body is simply the physical “thing” that you move around in on this earth. It is highly complex and most of our time in our lives is spent on taking care of, feeding, pampering, medicating, resting, and protecting our bodies. I am not saying that is wrong. But we have certainly given our attention to our bodies and neglected our spirits and souls. Your spirit and soul are the real you. The body is what the real you lives in.

Every day, passion speaks to us through our feelings. That’s why when you allow yourself to become anesthetized by what others think, you literally block yourself from living the life you were called to live. I promise you that if you make a choice that doesn’t please your mate, your friends, your mother, or whoever, the world will not fall apart. The people who truly love you want you to love yourself.    

I have come to realize that the heart is that place in you where your spirit and soul come together. You can choose to feel the emotions from the wonderful things which are in us as a result of the new birth.

Life is like an unsolved puzzle. No one can define what life is because it is a very complex thing. Life is something that makes you happy and proud at times and makes you feel so low at times that you say to yourself, "Why was I born?" But whatever it is, it is real fun. In Life, in every moment, something new happens; something that you never expected, something that you were waiting from a long while to happen and something you were expecting to happen. It is a combination of happiness, sorrow, joy, love, anger, enjoyment, loneliness, fear, excitement and many other emotions.

“Dil pe jo tere ghum ki inayat nahi hoti, aankhon se aansuon ki rafaakat nahi hoti

hum rehnuma se iltizaa kare to kyun kare, dariya ko raaston ki zaroorat nahi hoti

bujhta hai ai chiraag-e-zindagi tou bujh jaye, ab humse teri aur hifaazat nahi hoti

jane yeh log kaise nibhate hai jafaaein, humse tou iss gunaah ki himmat nahi hoti

patthar kahon use tou kis zuban se kahon, pattharon mein itni nazakat nahi hoti

tujhko gaye hue tou zamane guzar gaye, yaad teri iss dil se kyun rukhsat nahi hoti

jo bhul jaye tumko tum bhi usko bhula do, woh mohabbat tou mohabbat nahi hoti”

The definition of the word life can't be completed without using the word emotions. Some people work in emotions whereas others work with emotions. So it's very important to understand how people are using their emotions. If they are letting emotions get control over them, then they'll be dragged by others and situations all the time. But, if he is controlling his emotions in a proper way, then no one will ever have control over him.

The way a person uses his emotions is what we call attitude. Someone has correctly said, "Your attitude determines your altitude in life"attitude, as I already defined, is the way an individual uses his emotions and directly related to the psyche of a person.

Some people use their emotions in a positive way and some people do it in a negative sense. When people use emotions in a positive way we call it positive attitude and when they use it in a negative way we call it negative attitude. It's up to an individual to decide how he uses his emotions. Which way will you decide? 

 You are innately designed to use your personal power. When you don't, you experience a sense of helplessness, paralysis, and depression-which is your clue that something is not working as it could. You, like all of us, deserve everything that is wonderful and exciting in life. And those feelings emerge only when you get in touch with your powerful self.   

Remember, in our inmost being, we are all completely lovable because spirit is love. Beyond what anyone can make you think or feel about yourself, your unconditioned spirit stands, shining with a love nothing can tarnish.

To Love And Be Loved Is To Feel From Both Sides

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Yesterday when I was in Mansa Ram Park,Delhi then something comes in mind. Life is like an unsolved puzzle. No one can define what life is because it is a very complex thing. Life is something that makes you happy and proud at times and makes you feel so low at times that you say to yourself, "Why was I born?" But whatever it is, it is real fun.

Love is a gift from the god .This gift can’t get everybody. The love is not a crime…In starting you forget everything in love but at last love forget you. :(... that’s a fact of life …

When a girl dumps a guy…she dumps him for a reason…!! And the reason is it wasn’t meant to be. If someone dumps you..they don’t want to be with you..and I don’t think any reasonable person want to spend their life with a person that never genuinely wanted him or her. so guys get it right in your head.. if it didn’t work..it was for a reason..and the day you meet your beastie u will know the reason why it didn’t work with others! LOL..!  

It’s strange!! When there were prohibitions, love was so pure and true and now, when society is flexible, love has just become ..X., only a license it have ..X.. Most of the cases now, I mean!! Love has become a joke now when society has become more open minded!!!

You are the love of someone else but you are loved by someone else. You are liked by someone else but your likes are taken care of by someone else. Who is my own and who is a stranger? What is true what a lie is? in this world who knows. You are in the gaze of someone else but you are looked at by someone else.

Normally I see there are some of my friends who love a girl but not telling them. When I say you must tell her then they repeat only one line”Yaar himmat nhi hoti or kaise bolu.” Then I think that these guys are the best idiots of world that can’t tell the truth to someone. Tell him/her the truth before you lose him/her. It’s hard to speak the truth for the first time and trust me and rest of your life be in peace….

It’s true that I’m something more romantic guy. I never run from the truth of life…I’m not afraid when telling truth about someone. I speak that comes in my heart. Sometimes my friends message me that “yaar ladki kaise ptate hai jaldi bta…” etc …..!! Here I'll not say that what I'm feeling.....

I am sorry for her lost. Do what makes you happy, sometimes it is better to live with pain than try to forget the one you love. I don't think you can ever forget the one you love. All I can tell you will get used to of the pain, it will never go away. You will learn to live and laugh with it. The people that have never loved or lost in love don't know that it is not in your hand to forget the one you loved and will always love.

“Khwaab tutee hue, dil dukhaate rahe, Der tak woh hume yaad aate rahe, Kaat lee aansuon mein judaai ki raat, Sher kehte rahe, gane gungunaate rahe Tere jalwe paraaye hue magar gum nahi, Ye tassalli bhi apne liye kam nahi, Humne tumse kiya tha jo wafa ka vaada, Saans jab taq chali, hum nibhaate rahe Kisko mujrim kahein ab karein kya gilaa, Rishta tuta, na unki na meri thi razaa, Apni kismat mein kabhi woh thi hi nahi, Khwaab palkon pe jiske sajaate rahe...”

True Love is hard to get. Love is all about giving to other person without greed of gaining anything in return, if other person rejects it, it’s him/her who will be losing the most important thing in life. So never feel dejected.

And I love relationship there is another question that “ladko or ladkio mai kon zyada loyal (wafadar) hota hai.” For this question most people will say that “ladko me zyada loyalty hoti hai ladkiyoi se”. Sometimes I’m not satisfied from this answer. I see many couples where guys are not loyal in their relationship. Sometimes girls are more loyal than boys for this reason there is also a example from my college life. I remember that day 24th April,2011 when I see this fact. Here one problem is that I can’t share it. After that day I changed so much. If possible I’ll tell about that day …!!

If you lost his/her then don’t feel you are punishing yourself by thinking about her...just forget her....get married to someone else. and see, the new girl will fill so much of love in your life that you'll forget your ex-lover in no time....love life is just like professional life...if u lose a job, u don't sit and cry, u stand up and search for another job....life's like that man...so cheer up and start searching for a new girl (or better ask your parents to do so)...all the best

Love hurts. I hope if it’s for the better and keep hope always up. It’s wrong to be between two people to choose, to want. If they're for the better than that shall be. Nobody is good or bad it just Circumstances which made a person good or bad, and they will react accordingly. We need to understand it and should realize out mistakes and move on.

That's life. Parents can be convinced but couple-boy or girl should ask their self, do they really want to get married ,if answer is yes , than you should take stand no matter whatever happen. Don’t run or die because that won’t do anything. If anyone steps back the other person can't do anything.

But what about if everything goes fine until one day knows that everything is over, especially in our continent (Asian) most of our parents don’t agree... And when they do then it hurts allot...

To my knowledge I have never used someone. But I always help everybody from the whole of my heart. I am not bad you know. but when you have loved someone truly and she was unfaithful, and hold someone hand in front of you then you realize how love can change someone to a beast I suppose. It’s not me but it was my best friend me don’t have any girlfriend its good, I live more happily than those lovers. But most of the time girls are the worst because they have plenty of guys that run after them. Good I’m not like those guys and girls…!!!

Very true :) loved him with heart but it doesn't even matter but sometimes I wonder when we love someone we just love them without any reason and it goes on and on…!!

Enjoy The Jokes....!!!!

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 1.) A small boy opens the door and looks at his sister's boy friend and asks innocently "Every day you come to meet my sister, don't you have your
Own sister."
2.) Santa went for an interview Bank manager: what is cyclone? Santa: It is a smallest loan given by bank to buy a cycle :):):)
3.) Chintu was having habit of eating nails of his hand, His parents sent him to Ramdev Baba for treatment….. . . . Now Chintu can also eat nails of his legs..
4.) Teeth said to Tongue " If I just press you little hard, you will get cut. Tongue replied: "If I misuse one word against someone, then all the 32 of you will come out at once.”
5.) What is the height of flirting? When your love letter starts with . . . . " TO WHOMSOEVER IT MAY CONCERN"
6.) Ek aadmi ka ye sun kar heart fail ho gaya jab uski kaam waali bai ne kaha Saahab "Facebook pe muje bhi add kar lo."
7.) Dada(Grand Father): Beta ja paani le aa.
Pota(Grand Son): Mai nai laa sakta, mai game khel raha hun…..
2nd Pota (Second grandson): Rahne do dada ji, ye to hai he BADATMEEZ.....Aap khud he ja k le aao.
8.) World's shortest poem.. Baba black sheep have you any wool?..............
sheep: NO, get lost.
9.) Police: Oye, carparking ki jagah bike kyu park ki hai ?
Santa: just smiled and said "sirf do pahiyon ka farak hai UNCLE, aa jayenge
10.) Santa London k ek hotel me murgi khaane gaya lekin murgi ka english word bhool gaya..
Waiter: What would you like to have sir?
Santa: 1 plate Egg's mother.

Missing Like Hell......!!!!

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So, we meet for the first time in the New Year- 2013. Leaving all that we had in 2012 behind. The relationship that bloomed in the last year is finally at its height now. No need to remain in the past. The one who remains in the past is a stale body and soul. The one who is in present is the one with whom the life is to be celebrated with. Hence, I want all of you to finally leave last year and step up into this new one in the same way as you change the calendar of your house with the provenance of a year. And with it, change your habits. Even if now you will keep on giving excuses, it's better to leave your life and transfer your soul into a new body which shall respect it more than you do. So better change yourself now.

            Life is changed a lot in just one year and not just life I feel am also changed.. or maybe I can sense it this time because its recent.. When I decided to do B.Tech I never thought it will be like this. Our dreams are always different from real thing.

            Life is being different and not so brilliant lately. I thought I’ll give myself some more time to realize what’s going missing and why I am lacking that spark inside. Everyday end up with a feeling of restlessness and dissatisfaction. Leaving behind regret that one more day is wasted in running in a “rat race”…..

People might be happy living such life. But I am not nor do I want to get used to it. I can’t even abuse here huh. I have not seen such people in my life. Hell man! So mean…. Forget about friendship they don’t even know the meaning of being human. Their every act and every step is selfish. This is not my world and I am dead sure! I know myself I can do much better things in life. I gave myself time and now I have realized….

I was so much happy being a student. Don't know why I am here. This is not something I wanted….. I can feel the suffocation inside. From last 1 week when I leave my room for college, canteen I feel like crying… I carry so much of hurt inside. Something badly wounded as if my soul is tapped in a prison crying and craving for freedom. I feel like am in a world of machines where everybody is just doing programmed things without any sense of emotion. May be I am not liking anything nor I can cope up with it that’s why its making me so negative. I am workable and I can do well in life but so sad ..don't know why I am wasting myself .... the worst part is…. Hell yaar! I don’t wanna mention here…. Huh…. It seems now I'm more towards negativity.

            I am angry with you God! Believe me I never expected this from you. If you are punishing me for my sins then I guess you should stop now its already too much! And how I cant stop loving you. And I am thankful for good things you gave me.... My people.... My family and friends..... And of course many other things too but please help me out. You know I am in trouble and I am waiting for your reply God..... Love ya...